Grrr.

Yes. We all know Portugal is not in the World Cup anymore. Not like they were gonna win it anyway. The only reason I supported Portugal was coz of Cristiano Ronaldo. He is hott and he does play well. Just not this time. God knows why. Anyways, I get so pissed off when people constantly keep talking bad about him in front of me. I mean, its not like whoever they like plays well. Most of them are a bunch of cockfellas as well. So why the FUCK pick on Ronaldo instead of looking at people that they like. Gosh. Ok fine I shall just ignore. Anyways, Netherlands won against Brazil(WOOOOO, just as I had predicted) and Uruguay won against Ghana. I am kinda sad coz they were the only hope for Africa to be in the World Cup yet they lost. Thanks to Gyan Asamoah who missed the bloody penalty after Suarez(Uruguay) decided he got bored of playing football and wanted to play volleyball instead. I really am happy that Brazil lost, simply because they weren't playing well since the beginning! I don't fancy them anymore since Ronaldinho is not playing. He really knows his balls well. Hahahahahahahaha! And all the fancy footwork! Anyways tomorrow is Argentina vs Germany and Spain vs Paraguay. I really really want Argentina to win!!! Spain can just kiss my ass. I mean, I dont mind Torres but David Villa is bloody cocky and obnoxious. He is good looking and he plays well but he is bloody rude man. And I hate Puyol too. Urgh. Anyways, can't wait for the finals on the 11th. I predict(and hope) it would be Argentina vs Netherlands. Hehe.


Okay football aside, i've been bored these past few days. Yes I am in Ipoh. Not to say if I was in Sunway I would be entertained but at least I can go out and I would have more things to do. In Ipoh there's no one i know or want to hang out with. Thank God Karl is back, but he is going off to Melbourne for THREE bloody months on the 19th! Honestly, I am damn sad but I can't show it to him coz he already doesn't want to go. But I think he needs an eye opener to get out of this place so he can make a decision of what he wants to do with his life. He shouldn't let anyone or anything hold him back. He really is a very very good friend and I want him to be successful in life. Honestly, I really thank God for the friends I have from Ipoh, coz most of those that I am really close to are so real and genuine. They are so down to earth, not fake, THEY HAVE A HEART! oh and they don't lie. I mean, even if they do its harmless. I like friends who are completely transparent with me if I am with them. Because it shows that they really appreciate your friendship. Sighs.


Paris Hilton was arrested in South Africa after the Netherlands Brazil match for carrying pot(marijuana to those of you who don't know). Why would they suddenly decide to check her anyways? Sigh. I really pity celebrities coz they don't have their privacy. I mean, its their lives let them do what they want without publishing it to humiliate them. But oh well. Tabloids will be tabloids, as humans only want to read the falling of others to feel contended about themselves. Though we try very hard to hide it, everyone has in instilled in them to see somebody else fall. Whatever.  *I feel pissed off with the world, must be the PMS. 
-Informantion retrieved from http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/38065779/

Love. FIFA 2010.

Heylooo beautiful readers. Its the holidays now and my life has been pretty much a bore. Thank God for the invention of football!!! The World Cup has been my sole entertainer this whole break. Oh, I am not complaining. Hahaha! I had actually planned on updating my blog about every match, but I thought I would just remember what to write since my house in Ipoh had no internet, but then when my mom finally decided to get internet, I completely forgot the whole idea of blogging. Every single day, without fail, I watch the matches. All of them. Except when they were showing two matches at the same time. I love the World Cup. I'm actually so pissed off that my dad is going for the World Cup finals this year in South Africa. He already went for the last World Cup(semi finals and finals). But he promised me he would take me for the next one in Brazil! Aiyaiyai! I can't wait!!!! Anyways, it has been really interesting. Italy and France out even before the knock out rounds, and now England is out too! Well they were playing pretty bad. England vs Germany was a totally predictable match. Like who didn't know England was gonna lose to the Germans. Thank you Lukas Podolski, Miroslav Klose and Thomas Muller who scored 2 goals. And of course FANTASTIC Argentina's 3-1 win against Mexico. Mann the Argentinians are really kicking ass! Tevez's 2 goals and Gonzalo Higuain were the bomb. I really hoped Lionel Messi would have scored though. Anyways I am definitely rooting for them to win the World Cup this time around. Or Netherlands. Aaaaah can't wait for their match tomorrow. The Dutch are good but they never seem to win it? I feel that Argentina is the only team that has been consistent. But anyways, we shall see. Ooooh I cant wait for Spain vs Portugal too. My husband(Cristiano Ronaldo) on the field, all sweaty, uuurrrrrgh!! I need to stop myself. Hahahahahaa! I really hope they kick those Spanish butts. I like Spain too, but I prefer Portugal. I love the World Cup. I dont hink I've said it enough. Hahaha! I feel so happy every time I open my Facebook, and almost everyone has a status about the matches. I feel more connected to people. Weird I know. But yea. Haha! Oh! I won RM200 on the Argentina and Germany matches. I made bets with my dad. The easiest way to get money. So if i were to lose I wouldnt need to pay him back. Cunning much? Hehe! 


*Whoever invented football should be worshiped as a god. -Hugo Sanchez

mind.

I have so many things going through my mind right now. Damn a lot. Something today made me touched. Lame I know but hey, it is touching. I wished a senior of mine in high school happy birthday on Facebook today. I wasn't that close to her in high school nor did I expect her to remember me even. Yet, below my wish, she commented that when she saw my post, she pictured my laugh. It is touching because I never would have expected her to even reply to it. If someone I rarely speak/have spoken to can remember something about me, why can't you who I have been with for almost 2 years? Sigh. Sometimes I feel that I am expecting too much, but every single day I feel like I am nagging my heart out and nothing is ever gonna change. Grrr. But then I saw this, and it made a whole lot of sense. I know my two stories doesn't link very much at all but my mind works in mysterious ways. Anyhow,

VW Bugfest 2010.

Okay so it was at the beginning of June and it was time for BUGFEST that my cousins have been planning since months ago. I personally could not wait as I love Volkswagens although I don't know much about cars, this is one car I know about. Hehe. Anyways, we all left on the 4th of June, a day before the show. Oh, it was held in JB. All of us were staying at another cousin's place. I'll just let the pictures and captions do the talking.

Okay so by the time I reached, due to my finals only ending in the evening, I followed the second group to leave to JB and that was at 8 at night. By the time we reached and stuff it was late. On the way I had a few beers, and when I reached there was a whole ice box filled with beer waiting for me. Overall, my cousins had bought 4 crates, but when I reached we were only left with 2 crates, so therefore we drank till dawn. I was drunk+tired+I cried that night so forgive me for looking like a mess in all the pictures. Picture taking only started at 7am when we decided to jump in the pool. Pictures time! 

  

We were posing and my cousin(guy) said "Its not good to take a pic with three ppl in it! One will die!". Actually, he just wanted to be in the picture.

Told you I was drunk.

I was floating and apparently I looked like an otter.

  

Found a frangipani, got excited, and check out the eyebags due to no sleep and yea, drunk. My cousin looked so fresh because she was sober and she had sleep.

My cousin loves photography so she made me do this. I think its retarded but I love the water droplets thingy.

This picture reminds me of us when we were small kids.

Awwwww. <3

Beetles. (Red one belongs to Shonny a.k.a Rizal and Aqua one belongs to my cousin, Sajiv)

Beetles all lined up at the BugFest.

Marilyn Monroe. I didnt really like it because the sticker wasnt stuck on it properly. Whatever happened to perfection. Geez.

Walking to check out the Type 2s, Kombi!

Scirocco first generation

Few of the Kombis.

More Beetles.

Check this Beetle out.

Lady Bug with eyelids and teeth too!

My fav Beetle at the whole show. Colour, rims, EVERYTHING.

 

Unique colour.

Paint job and sound system well done. Very well actually.

My cousin's Golf GTI mk2.

Cousins bf's Golf GTI mk1.

Shonny a.k.a Rizal's Beetle California Look.

Cousin's Beetle California Look as well.

Bugfest baby.

Black Beauty.

Front

Back.

We train em young.

I love this pic.

My red Beetle. ooooo I wish!

 

My red ring on my cousin's finger.

 

'Golf owners the face all must be very lan si'. Yet he just looks like a retarded petrol station worker. I feel sad for my cousin.

GROUP PICTURE!

First VW I ever drove, few years back.

After that, we proceeded for tea at an Indian restaurant, and this was the bill. See if you guys can guess what it says.

The next day, it was time to leave. Goodbye JB.

All in all, I had fun. Can't wait to do it again. Next up, Langkawi post! :D

*rants*

Okay I know I haven't been blogging in ages but I want to complain to someone but I don't feel like troubling anyone and then I realized 'Heyyy! what are blogs for!'

GRRRRRRR. So many stuff has been happening lately and I think my patience is running thin. Yea you might say that I am hot tempered and so on but use your fucking brains and think about it, how often do I actually speak my mind when I am not satisfied about something(except to Daniel)? Ok so here goes.

I know people who think that they are right in everything they do or think. As in literally EVERYGODDAMNTHING. OMG! Can't they like realize that they are not?! When there is like concrete proof! If you say its one thing only then fine, but this is like about every single damn thing. Sometimes I wonder, what do they think they are? God-sent? And like every time I need a favor its always "I don't wanna get involved as I have already gotten involved too many times or I don't know what to say" and every time they need my help they say stuff like "Can you please help me ........? I always helped you and blablabla" when the truth is every time I needed their help I got that same old pathetic answer. Oh plus the ratio of me helping them out with their problem is WAYYYYY more compared to the number of times they've helped me. I mean, I don't mind helping people but when I need help, they just back off and I always have to handle it by myself. I'm not complaining here about that because trust me due to their lack of help, I have grown stronger and not caught up in a web of lies. I would rather be a more honest person and admit for the mistakes I made and face the consequences. Then next time don't fucking ask for my help or make me get involved. Come on. Don't you think its about time you grew up instead of just pretending? I wish I was a straightforward person where I don't take any bullshit from people because this is seriously pissing me off keeping everything inside. But oh well. No one is perfect I know. And I should not look at the bad side of them because they have more to offer on the good side. But I'm only human too and I can't help but feel this way about certain stuff. 

Oh well. No matter what I still love them and nothing is gonna change that. You should love everyone for who they are even when  they are being someone other people in general might hate. ALWAYS TREAT OTHERS HOW YOU WANNA BE TREATED. My motto to life! See told you I would feel better after venting out. Hmm. I cant wait for the VW BugFest tomorrow in JB! Gonna be going with my cousins like a family trip(sorta) and I want to celebrate my freedom after exams! Well not much of a celebration because I have already been celebrating enough, like for example now when I am supposedly studying for my donkey IT finals tomorrow. Bloody Kdu people. I applied for Masscomm, not Business. Yet I have only 1 Masscomm subject and 3 Business subjects this semester. Hmmmmm. I screwed Econs, now waiting for tomorrow! Just for JB. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh. Beer oh beer, I need you so badly.

(photos taken from I Can Read Tumblr)

taaaaged!

Elii tagged me in this post on FB. So I decided to post it in my blog instead of on Fb where theres no privacy at all. Judging from the fact that my parents, teachers are on FB so yea, here goes.



WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage:
water

2. Last phone call:
Dad.

3. Last text message:
Daniel.

4. Last song you listened to:
Toyfriend-David Guetta

5. Last time you cried:
errr, cant remember. :)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice:
yuppppp.

7. Been cheated on:
yeaaaa

8. Been in a relationship & regretted it:
nope. everything happens for a reason i believe. :)

9. Lost someone special:
yupppp.

10. Been depressed:
who hasnt??

11. Been drunk and threw up:
of course! but i dont anymore! *touch wood*

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. RED
13. black
14. gold

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend:
yes.

16. Fallen out of love:
nopeeeee. :)

17. Laughed until you cried:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! YUPPP!

18. Met someone who changed you:
well, yes.

19. Found out who your true friends were:
this I already found out last year.

20. Found out someone was talking about you?
hmmmm yes. but who cares!

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list:
of course! my sea animals!

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life:
almost all.

23. How many kids do you want to have:
0?? :)

24. Do you have any pets:
of course! they are my lovesssss!

25. Do you want to change your name:
no wayyy! i love my name! its short and it means smile!

26. What did you do for your last birthday:
berMist-ing

27. What time did you wake up today:
lateeeeeeeeeeeeee

28. What were you doing at midnight last night:
otw bAck from ipoh.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
i have ntg to look forward to. :(

30. Last time you saw your Mother:
yesterday! when she came back from Indon.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:
i want to have more money so i can eat more.

32. What are you listening to right now:
Arifs voice coz he's skyping with Mini.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:
yes. hahahahha.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now:
the heat.

35. Most visited webpage:
facebook, twitter, yeaaaa thats all.

36. What's your real name:
Smita a/p Sudhakaran.

37. Nicknames:
smiiii, smismi, smistar(my fav) smittens.

38. Relationship Status:
in a relationship with Daniel Alexander Jeyarajah. Married to Shamini Rajah-Kot Hui Tze.

39. Zodiac sign:
virgooooo.

40. Male or female?
male. no! female. no im confused.

41. Elementary:
Tadika Kemas. thats why im so messy.

42. Middle School?:
S.K.Convent Ipoh.

43. High school/college?
S.M.K Convent Ipoh. Sunway University College, Murdoch University.

44. Hair colour:
black dyed brown. :)

45. Long or short:
longgg. finally. :)

46. Height:
165cm.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?
yes. his name is Zippity.

48. What do you like about yourself?
Im pretty much happy with everything except the fact that im so hairy.

49. Piercings:
ears, repiercing my back soon. :)

50. Tattoos:
Yup. 4.

51. Righty or lefty:
rightyyyyyyyyyy.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery:
appendix.

53. First piercing:
ears when i was a kid.

54. First best friend
SIEW EEEEEEEEEE!

55. First sport you joined:
badminton.

56. First vacation:
Singapore.

58. First pair of trainers:
when i was a kid.

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating:
Just finished McD. yummm.

60. Drinking:
Coke.

61. I'm about to:
heat up crabs.

62. Listening to:
Arif sounding like an astronaut.

63. Waiting for:
nothing.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?
maybe.

65. Get Married?
well yes, someday.

66. Career?
OF COURSE!!

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes:
ermmmm. eyes!

68. Hugs or kisses:
hugs. no. kisses. no. BOTH!

69. Shorter or taller:
taller.

70. Older or Younger:
older obviously. unless the younger have a more matured mentality, which i highly doubt.

71. Romantic or spontaneous:
spontaneous.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms:
arms.

73. Sensitive or loud:
loud. but not to the extend of annoying.

74. Hook-up or relationship:
relationship.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant:
trouble maker. without a doubt. :D

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger:
no.

77. Drank hard liquor:
is this even a question?

78. Lost glasses/contacts:
nopeeee.

79. Sex on first date:
nope!

80. Broken someone's heart:
yes. not proud of it.

82. Been arrested:
not yet! :)

83. Turned someone down:
yessssss.

84. Cried when someone died:
yeah.

85. Fallen for a friend?:
yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself:
95%

87. Miracles:
nope not really.

88. Love at first sight:
no.

89. Heaven:
yes.

90. Santa Claus:
no. its only a diversion of the real meaning of Christmas.

91. Kiss on the first date:
why not??

92. Angels:
yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?
no.

95. Did you sing today?
yes alone. in my room.

96. Ever cheated on somebody?
if thats considered cheating.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?
just once to re-live all the moments i had fun and alter my mistakes.

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?
too many!

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?
love is scary. but its the best feeling in the world.

100. Posting this as 100 truth?
hehehe. maybe? maybe not? 

If This Means The Best For Both of Us.

One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
And I know what I'm going through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go, let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
But all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go

You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am

You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me 


*3 Doors Down. Let Me Go.


how do we make everything work when somebody hurts, fails, lies, dies slowly inside. Can somebody please tell me, what is love? I know what is love from my family and friends. Just not from the significant other.