Mango Shark! :)

Hellooo. This is a special post for a very good friend of mine, MISS SANGEET RHANDAWA! She is very pretty and I love her. No not only because she is pretty. Hehe.

This is her!

Anyways dear mango, I want you to know that you are a superhero when it comes to friendships. You are someone that people will NEVER regret meeting and if they do, means we know that there's something really wrong with them. I love you to bits and knowing you really has brought so much joy to my life. You really are amazing and I want you to know that I really do admire you for being so strong, and even when you were going through a really rough time, you still told me about it with your jokes and laughter. I want you to know that I'll always be here for you, and you can count on me no matter what. Whatever happened doesn't make you a different person and I always will love you and I never will stop. Hahahahhaa. I LOVE YOU!

First time we went to Genting at night to drink&play cards. :)

THIS PIC! YOUR HOODIE! HAHAHAHAHH! and the comments for this pic on fb.

how we used to 'study' at the foyer. (forgive my dungu fringe)

You always let me molest you. :D

and you let me wear your shades at night coz we are awesome like that. :)

As usual, you teaching me how to hug coz apparently I don't know how to hug. I remember the exact words. :P

First time I went for Thaipusam! You held my hand coz I was scared! OH! This pic also shows how only both of us will be aware when someone is about to take our pic!

When we were sent to buy CDs.

Genting again. Drinking in Safari and dancing to Sexy Bitch till 9am in the morning.

Before going to the waterfall. (CrazyRetarded car dancing videos taken the same day)

We secretly really are lovers.

Random makan sessions.

Safari in Genting AGAIN. This was when Eli was super sick.

We were sober.

Pitbull together! Borrowed your IC coz I lost mine and I memorized ALL your details and even borrowed your bangle just to enter but they didn't even check IC. 

With our horns trying to act cool. If you see the comments for this pic on FB we kutuk Eli as usual. Then I just remembered how we laughed at her dancing. And how drunk we were. And how I tried fitting through my condo grill because I left the keys in Mini's car. And also how I left one side of my slipper in Eli's car. 

I will NEVER forget this day. "Eh Smi, paint paint my teeth!" HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Your engagement! You looked so so perfect(you always do, but that day was WHOA) and I looked like mayat. I just balik from KL right. Anyways, your wedding I promise I'll look nicer! Oh, that was the first time in my life I wore a saree also! 

At Eli's 21st! Look at your face! hahahahahhaha! You like making sure I won't steal your cupcake like that! hehe. 

Me caught red handed trying to cuddle you in my sleep. I even left my pillow. You mcm avoiding. HAHHAHAHA. After Eli's 21st. We were high&stayed over and both of us slept in the hall. <3

This is not even half of the pics we took together. Got so many more but you know la I lazy to find. Hehe. Sunway days were awesome. Studying in foyer, candyman, lovestoned, lepaking in the Sunway field ordering Jaafar or Mohd's, bonding with our friends, ss19 padang drinking session, laughing at Eli, clubbing, Predator&Prey, your condo room when your roommate is not there, walking from Pyramid back to hostel at night, laughing at Eli, Gossip Girl, Fruit Family, Sea Sayangs Genting, Genting and more Genting, laughing at Eli, Pitbull, laughing at Eli again, doing retarded things together, waterfall, dancing crazily in the car, horrible ayam penyet in Ipoh, you yelling "Where the hell is the stupid pharmacist" only to find him standing RIGHT behind you, Fruitland!, clubbing, Valentine's day where we buy each other roses(last year), nasi kandar, omg so many more la but you get what I mean. Hehe. I LOVE YOU MY MANGO! :)

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Okay this was my profile banner quote thingy. But I love it so much and I feel its nice with this pic. :)

toenails.

Just read this on Twitter: If life gives you lemons, squirt it in your enemies eyes. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! wth. I have a lot of pics to upload but DiGi broadband takes foreverrrrr. Like the Indonesia trip. Even on FB its taking damn long. grrr. 22 pics in 2 days ok! for example. I just tried uploading ONE pic now and its taking forever. 
Anyways, I shall just blog about nonsense&pretty pictures.

 Let people say whatever they want to say about you. You know your own capabilities in life. Its only once the lights are off that they would see your glow.

Sparkle, like the stars in the dark. Let no one, nothing ever bring you down.

We hold our own magic in our hands.

Okay as I was browsing through some pics, I saw these pics and I just had to blog about it. Hahahah. I want a guy like these two. HOTTTTTTTTNESS!

And of course my Chuck Bass, my eternal love. :)

Then I came across pics of animals. ALL WERE SO CUTE OKAY! So I just took the first three that I saw. Hehe.

How I wish I owned a zoo. Really. 

*pictures all taken from some tumblr. The three quotes below the first three pictures were my own.

Password: forgot.

Okay so I haven't updated my blog coz I forgot my password. How very smart of me. I think someone needs to make me stop being too perasan. I keep thinking that I'm damn awesome. Maybe I am. hahahhahahahahahaha. Anyways, since I last blogged, everything became shit. Figured out who my true friends really are. But I'm not gonna get into that because I don't wanna rant. Just shut up and play along. :)

Being single is awesome. For now. I kinda feel lonely already. hahhaahahahahahahaa. anyways. I'm just gonna upload pics. 

Teddy Bears&Balloons.

Okay so like basically, today is definitely not a good day for me. Got screwed from 2 guys that actually have ever mattered to me, lesbo+retarded friend leaving back to UK. I don't even know where to start this. Okay let me start from the bitterness of everything and end it with something good.


My dad is in his own PMS world of his own, that kinda pissed me off. I texted him today knowing that his blood pressure was kinda high, and I was concerned after my mom told me. And his reply was "WHY YOU GOT NO MORE MONEY IS IT?!". I mean, yes I am fucking broke. But it never even crossed my mind to ask him for cash, I just wanted to see how he was doing. And he kept on going about how I am only bothered about my friends and whatnot. He even mentioned about how I waste money going partying. 1stly, I rarely spend money when I'm out coz usually I get free drinks&shots. The upside about knowing people. I'm in Ipoh for goodness sake. So yea, of course I would bump into friends or know when I should be out on Ladies Night for free shit. Of course I can't do it every night, but when he was back I was out. I mean, logically think about it. My sister&I always used to stay at home last time and wait for him to get back so we could spend time with him, but yea he was always out with his friends. So I basically just adapted to it. I mean, don't expect me to make sacrifices when you can't do the same. It became a whole issue. Be the change you want to see in others. Treat others how you want to be treated. Thats what I always believed in. Still do. So yea. Thats one.


Second. YOU. yes you. You know fucking well how much I love you. We've been through so much, so I would expect you to know. Yes I do have a sleep switch. Everyone knows it but sadly not you. Sorry I love partying. To me its something I do to have fun and just forget the world. Yea sounds selfish but its my escape. My general way of letting go and just be retarded and enjoy the moments I have with my friends. Life is too short to be serious. No one gets out alive anyway. Yes I know it may sound selfish, but its not intentional. I  mean, I drink, I get happy, dance with my friends, do shit, fall down, laugh, cry, be a complete fool, next day I think back and be "Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!". Never deceiving you. Not after I've came to my realization. I just wanna let my hair down and go all out. I am like that. You were with me even when I was like that. I have always been that way. So why the restrictions now. If you can't love me for who I really am, then don't. If I'm just having fun based on my own selfishness and enjoyment, then I wouldn't even be attached. But I am. I still get drunk and party like a rockstar with my closest friends who do coz I want to, and because I am ONLY 21(going on 22). Life is too short to be anything but happy. If I really wanted to be a slut I can. But I'm not. So yes, please do understand where I'm coming from. 


I'm too lazy to be bugged by the 'men' in my life. Only two really matter, yet they think the same. So you know what, DON'T EVEN BOTHER ABOUT ME! I'mfine just the way I am. I am an adult, I know how to think for myself. I just feel sorry for the BOTH of you for not willing to accept me for WHO I REALLY AM. Maybe one day I would find someone who would. Not my loss then.

Anywhos. My best crazyretardedbitch is leaving back to UK today. FML. You see the thing is, with her, I FUCKING enjoy my time in Ipoh, coz basically I met someone crazier and more retarded than I am. 

The both of us. <3

When you would waste polaroids on Shaun&I

When we do stupid stuff like this.

When we steal Adrian's stuff.

And exchange.

Best of all, when you are such a perv my love.

How la when you are gone? I think I would die. Though you would be here again in April. Its still a VERY VERY long time. Xian, I love you. :')

Sorry, Apology NOT Accepted.

Sometimes I wish I was perfect. No flaws, nothing. No, not physically, but emotionally and mentally. People say stuff when they get mad. I'm one of them. I say stuff I don't mean especially when I get mad. The reason I get mad- because I am hurt. That's my defense from exposing to the world that I am hurt. Yes. I am very egoistic, and yes, I am admitting it. I say stuff that I don't mean when I get angry, and end up hurting everyone around me. I wish I wasn't like that, but I am. My mouth is like some laser. I really really hate that about me. Because it hurts everyone around me, and I actually don't mean it. But I know I can't take whatever I said back. Causing other people to be hurt. Well, I am sorry. Thats all I can say. I can't do anything to take back whatever I said, but if I could, I would. I love my family to bits, but yet I always hurt them. I know being mad is not an excuse for saying whatever I said, but that's my only excuse. Sometimes I just wanna go somewhere I know no one and start a new life. But life is not that simple is it? Gaaah. Running away is never the solution to any problem, so I guess I have to face whatever punishment thats in store for me. But thats not bothering me at all. What bothers me is that I have hurt you, and I can never take that back. Even if eventually you choose to forgive me, I can't actually be the same anymore. The thing is, arguing with my mom is SO normal, that we're so used to whatever we say to each other. 5 minutes later we totally forget and just be 'friends' again. Same with my sis. Thats whats so cool about them. But with my dad, its totally different, probably because I rarely get see him. All I can do is just feel super bad and apologize to him. Anyways, for what its worth, I'm really really sorry and I love you very much. You are the best father I could ever ask for and you'll always be my hero. :')

80th post.

 Distance doesn't matter if u really love the person, what matters is your honesty and trust for it to work out.


And yes Dan, I love you. So very much. :')